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Secrets of the Abused.
Its a lot to take on when life changes everything you had to something you don't recognize. I look back on these last two years with a heart of stone, and at the same time, a fist full of happiness.I believe that without mistakes nobody would find any direction to where they are supposed to lead. And with mistakes that direction becomes ever so clear. Its a road traveled by many.
I fell in love with a great man, two years ago. He scooped me up and held me when I was broken, alone, and confused. My life had drastically changed, my best friend moved away, and I moved towns. It was a lot to handle, being only a Junior in high school. This man came without warning, without an advice label, and very quickly.
I could never explain to anybody, how I could love someone that I met on the internet. Its quite a contradiction to everything I'd ever known. Too this day, thinking back on those first two months of our relationship, I see only the beauty and love we carried, a love that bloomed remotely on the phone. It was emotional, never physical.
That kind of a connection is often met with complications, because when you need someone, you don't just need them on an emotional level, you need them in a physical element too. Our complications arose with great force over the two years, and steadily increased to a mere jealousy and loathing between both of us. And everyday my heart aches just a little for the love I remember. But, as time wears on, it aches a little less.
Its a road traveled by many, and this road tends to leave people in a constant state of loneliness. Hence, the reason woman stay with abusers, and men who treat them like shit. Its a reason why people resort to drugs and alcohol. Its to cure loneliness. And everyone is so blind to see, that if you hold out just a little bit longer, soon enough you won't feel that pain. You'll be in new surroundings away from that abuser, and independent from addictions..
Now, I have officially been labeled a victim of abuse. Occasionally physical but emotionally abused is the title I take with me as I leave this relationship. Looking back, I should've seen all the signs, and I can recognize my behaviours as an abused fiancee/girlfriend.
I would never wish this kind of unstable relationship on anyone. And even to this day, that are still factors that prevent me from removing myself completely out of his grip.
I just hope with this book, where I will tell all, every dirty detail, that I can help others who face this kind of turmoil.
I fell in love with a great man, two years ago. He scooped me up and held me when I was broken, alone, and confused. My life had drastically changed, my best friend moved away, and I moved towns. It was a lot to handle, being only a Junior in high school. This man came without warning, without an advice label, and very quickly.
I could never explain to anybody, how I could love someone that I met on the internet. Its quite a contradiction to everything I'd ever known. Too this day, thinking back on those first two months of our relationship, I see only the beauty and love we carried, a love that bloomed remotely on the phone. It was emotional, never physical.
That kind of a connection is often met with complications, because when you need someone, you don't just need them on an emotional level, you need them in a physical element too. Our complications arose with great force over the two years, and steadily increased to a mere jealousy and loathing between both of us. And everyday my heart aches just a little for the love I remember. But, as time wears on, it aches a little less.
Its a road traveled by many, and this road tends to leave people in a constant state of loneliness. Hence, the reason woman stay with abusers, and men who treat them like shit. Its a reason why people resort to drugs and alcohol. Its to cure loneliness. And everyone is so blind to see, that if you hold out just a little bit longer, soon enough you won't feel that pain. You'll be in new surroundings away from that abuser, and independent from addictions..
Now, I have officially been labeled a victim of abuse. Occasionally physical but emotionally abused is the title I take with me as I leave this relationship. Looking back, I should've seen all the signs, and I can recognize my behaviours as an abused fiancee/girlfriend.
I would never wish this kind of unstable relationship on anyone. And even to this day, that are still factors that prevent me from removing myself completely out of his grip.
I just hope with this book, where I will tell all, every dirty detail, that I can help others who face this kind of turmoil.